Blacktress is heading into the Intelligencia at Sunset Junction when she bumps into Seema Reddy, a brilliant actress she co-starred with in the 12 minute short: Bollyhood. They hug and tell each other they look well. Then Seema asks Blacktress the question all actors with agents in the valley feel the need to ask each other.
“So, are you getting out much?”
Blacktress plays up the co-star she booked last month on Angeltown but glosses over the fact that she hasn’t had a single theatrical audition in two and a half weeks. Seema on the other hand lays her miserable truth right out there.
“I’m not getting out at all. It’s so fucking discouraging. There are so few parts for me. And no good ones. ”
Her negativity catches like wildfire. Blacktress is burned.
“I know what you’re saying. They try to act like its getting better but its not. It’s like it would kill them to pop off a new brown face every now and then.”
“Or at all,” Seema snaps.
“The good news for me is, if I hang in there for 20 years, I’ll be old enough to play the black judge. Then I’ll be going out every week!”
“What do I have to look forward to? At least you have Tyler Perry.”
Blacktress is silent.
A week later Seema calls Blacktress to invite her over for a drink. By the time they finish a second bottle of “2 Buck Chuck,” Seema is ready to make her confession: She was getting out after all.
“I think I’m moving back to Tampa,” she says quickly.
Blacktress tries to talk her off the ledge.
“No, you’re too talented for that, Seema. If you do, you’ll regret it. ”
Seema is silent.
When Blacktress gets home she calls her friend, Ilanya Howard, to mourn the loss of her friend Seema Reddy, the fallen Angelino.
“I can’t believe she would just quit on her dream and go home like that,” she laments.
“Who gives a shit? I like to hear people say they’re going home,” Iyanla confesses. “LA is littered with twenty-something wanna-bees. Buzzing around and taking up space. The more of them who tire out and take their asses home, the better. That way, by the time we get in our thirties, the playing field won’t be so over-crowded. ”
Blacktress is stunned by her lack of compassion. She dramatically rolls her eyes into the phone and adopts a judging tone.
“You are cold blooded, Iyanla. Cold Bloo- -”
Her thought halts mid sentence and then swerves.
“…Seema has a nice place though. I wonder how much the rent is.”
Iyanla chuckles and adds, “ This shit is survival of the fittest.”
April 19, 2010 at 6:32 pm
Sometimes people just need to take a step back and allow on that negative thinking to float away. I think everybody at a point in their life has considered throwing in the towel and going home – I know I have several times. But its moments like that which make us stronger that need to occur. I know it sounds crazy, but I think its times like that which prepare you for large hurdles which may appear down the road. If you never considered quiting and packing your shit and go home, I don’t think you want it bad enough….
April 19, 2010 at 11:55 pm
I’m with Iyanla. There are too many people out here who shouldn’t be. People think they can just come to LA and make it. The truth is that it’s hard work. Lot’s of hard work. In no other profession besides the arts do people just up and decide they can do it on a whim, when they get here they are shocked by how much you have to want it. The sooner these fakers leave the better. I’m sick of their crappy service at Fred 62’s.
April 20, 2010 at 12:08 am
LOL What is up with the crappy service at Fred 62s? They really do need to get that together.
April 20, 2010 at 8:34 pm
But reality TV has made people feel that they can just come to LA and make it. The top stars in music these days have come from American Idol and The dumped chick from the Bachelor is now a co-host on Dancing with the Stars, Carrie American Idol Underwood is Country Music’s entertainer of the year. And listen to this new Justin Buthead tween kid, he can’t carry a tune across the street. And dare we mention Taylor Swift, everybody saw her Grammy Performance. Many of these people at the top of their games ARE NOT VERY TALENTED. That’s why people will flock to LA expecting “overnight success”.
April 21, 2010 at 8:37 pm
This is such a show waiting to happen! I love this blog!!! Oh how I miss “Two Buck Chuck” nights in L.A. discussing the industry w/my girl Erin … sigh.
Anywho ,As long as Blacktress doesn’t give up on her dream (even if she switches locations). Keep it up!!!
April 21, 2010 at 10:19 pm
Are you using people’s real names?
April 21, 2010 at 10:25 pm
All names are changed to protect the innocent. Some characters are composites. 🙂 All is well.
April 27, 2010 at 2:19 pm
I’m into this one. I fell off the wagon many times myself. I never went home to the east coast…fuck that shit…but I did switch gears, adapt a new outlook and game plan. Then I fell off hard and haven’t worked or attempted to work in 2 years. I miss it (I even miss the beatdown) and understand the desperation for those of us who love this art. It’s just such a bitch sometimes.
April 27, 2010 at 7:30 pm
I’ve learned that the Universe will Test you to see how badly you Desire a Thing. If you pass the Test, you’ll have a Testimony, if you fail the Test, you’ll repeat it until you succeed in passing it then you’ll be able to TESTIFY to all those younger up-starts, about HOW YOU GOT OVER!!! Hang in There!! Don’t quit!! Be patient and Be Creative while you wait for the Creator to Shower HIS Blessings upon you!!!
Love YOU MUCH!!!
August 13, 2010 at 3:30 pm
this is my 2nd time around and in november it will be 5 years back for me. those who can hang do. some never return. then there are those like me who need a break leave then come back again like me WISER and not making the industry #1. Serve your spirit first and the things that make you happy. Don’t make the industry your life. Then you lose yourself. Some leave and don’t come back. Your presence in the industry can be all one or none of the following: a season, a reason or a lifetime. I never stopped creating when i left La La Land. I just did it at at my own pace. And when it was time to come back I did. seen many come and go both times i’ve lived here. but they are braver then those how never move out here because of the fear of the unknown. GO BLACKTRESS!!